the end of 2009

finally come to the last day of 2009, as conclude this year is really a tough year for me. i am like on the roller coaster, with unknown journey, rise and fall. but like what kerlee said, this is life. only life with fall and rise will bring us forward and growth. special thanks to kerlee always shared her experience with me. i hate form six life! thanks to my dear mum too although she put me in such tough situation but she let me know the reality of life, what should an adult face. apple, ahui, chinting, bybae and shirley, the five most important people in my form six life, thanks them so so much. oh, one more guy i have to thanks is my best msn friend,alfred. thanks to everyone in my life, you guys were too awesome and adorable, sorry that i can't point out one by one cause of little bit brain damage. in the last few days of 2009, i knew more and more about reality, i will face all of them. hope that start of 2010 i won't alive under the sight of others, i don't care! woohoo~~bye 2009, i won't miss you!

至我的一个朋友，

那就是一个潘多拉的盒子，永远都不能打开。既然人家把你的真心践踏，我想你也不必再对人家处处想让，也不必为人家着想。告诉他不要随便质疑别人对他的真心对待。那种贱货不要也罢，我支持你，加油！好好活出自我......

今天的领悟是，

一条平行线上最多只能三人同行。
四个人的话，只有欲望城市那四个熟女才行。

“天公伯”，保佑啊！

生活总是充满惊奇，每当绝望之时，另一个希望有崛起。
本来稳下心来要好好当个sale，现在又要去银行和加拿大人通电话。
人生真是无奇不有，结果如何呢？
明天自有分晓，“天公伯”，保佑啊！

Today Was A Fairy Tale

well, there are 5 more days i have to work. it's great, maybe...? i also don't know is this the best choice, maybe this is one of the road i should walk through. today is the 16 days after my exam. in this 16 days, i had discovered and understand the reality i should face. especially in relationship, no matter in kind of social or friends. maybe there was also my fault that no tell others what i actually want and i just tried so hard to cover what i know, because i don't want to lose it. heard taylor swift's new song , okey, it's time for me to face the reality now. tomorrow gonna be a good day.

天使遗留的笔记

这是第二本我看到哭的书，书名是《天使遗留的笔记》。这是一本关于一个五岁的小女孩艾莲娜抗癌九个月的过程。艾莲娜在她五岁时发现他身患脑瘤，她的父母把这九个月和癌症抗战的所有写进这本书内。艾莲娜在她剩余的九个月内完成了许多事情。艾莲娜离世之前在家里的个个角落塞满了写给父母及妹妹的信/卡片，让他们可以纪念她。她的开朗和天真让我自愧不如，为何我要为了几件无聊的小事情而耿耿于怀。我因该跟热爱生命，享受生命的美好。愿艾莲娜在天国当个美丽的红发小天使。

第一本看到哭的是九把刀的《这些年二哥很想你》。九把刀真的很贱（这是褒不是贬)，把和狗狗的故事写得如此平凡但又如此贴切人心。

刚刚看了萧亚轩的twitter，希望大家为她的妈妈祈福因为萧妈妈病得很重。愿萧妈妈早日康复。

To Myself : Adia

Adia I do believe I failed you
Adia I know I let you down
don't you know I tried so hard
to love you in my way
it's easy let it go...

Adia I'm empty since you left me
trying to find a way to carry on
I search myself and everyone
to see where we went wrong

'cause there's no one left to finger
there's no one here to blame
there's no one left to talk to honey
and there ain't no one to buy our innocence
'cause we are born innocent
believe me Adia, we are still innocent
it's easy, we all falter
does it matter?

Adia I thought that we could make it
but I know I can't change the way you feel
I leave you with your misery
a friend who won't betray
I pull you from your tower
I take away your pain
and show you all the beauty you possess
if you'd only let yourself believe that
we are born innocent
believe me Adia, we are still innocent
it's easy, we all falter, does it matter?
believe me Adia, we are still innocent
'cause we are born innocent
Adia we are still
it's easy, we all falter ... but does it matter?

Adia from Avril Lavigne, really a great song. I Believe in it. Thanks.

老虎/老鼠傻傻分不清楚

爱河的水喝了都会让人老虎/老鼠傻傻分不清楚？

算过了个不错的圣诞晚。虽然没有雪花但却有大家慢慢的爱，我也满足了。
还不错，接到君儿的祝愿简讯。愿大家拥有丰收的下一年。
2012世界末日别来啊，我还要多活好一阵子呢！
经过这一天让我对事情看得越来越透彻，一切就随风而去吧！

happy merry merry christmas!

today is christmas eve,
hope that tonight gonna be a good good night!
happy merry merry christmas!

冬至

明天就是冬至了，刚刚帮妈妈把汤圆一粒粒的搓好了。不知为何汤圆怎样搓都不会完美，形状和大小一定有差异。这世上应该只有机器才能把汤圆的形状和大小控制成一样的。就像人一样，永远都不会完美的。我终希望所有事情可以完美所以对所有事情都多番忍让，可是结果都离想象很远很远，甚至被遗弃。无所谓的，我已努力，就算是如此也只能说明我做的已足够。反正没有事情是容易的，努力就好了。

备注：宁可后悔做过的事，也不要后悔没做过的事。

20/12/2009

追完《仙剑3》，立刻又投入了《仙剑1》。不知为何特别喜欢配角，常常疑问为何配角就得牺牲成全主角。或许吧，我可以了解配角的心情。永远不能成为主角，但却是不可或缺的！

圣诞节快到了，有什么计划呢？天知地知...我不知！

secret

something belongs to secret just let it be,
knowing too much sometimes won't bring any benefits but disasters!

难

难难难难难，这真是一段很难熬的路。

李阿荟，生日快乐！

原本以为我中六的生活必定非常无聊，虽然真的很无聊啦。不过因为阿荟，芯伊和苹果，才觉得没那么感慨。在报名的第一天，看到她们让我有安全感多了。那天，二话不多说，报完名就狠狠地去唱K。仿佛一起歌颂我们不幸的开始，还好现在一切结束了，谢天谢地，当然最谢谢的是我们自己，如此难熬还幸存了下来。每天争取一点下课的二十分钟，好好的高谈阔论一番。虽然如此难熬，却能乐在其中。如今我们家阿荟已十九了，可以嫁了。没有啦，今天是她十九岁生日，愿她从后能一如既往，开怀大笑。最重要的是，现在工作不要打瞌睡就好了。

仙剑3

刚刚追看完<仙剑3>，剧情很不错。
长卿和紫萱三生三世的爱最令人感动。
不得不提的是蜀山科技真发达，拥有资料百科，通讯仪，甚至连卫星导航都有。
首推通讯仪，真的比市面上任何一款手机还厉害，还能隔空传物呢！
佩服佩服。

february babies-chee han and ker lee

seem apo can't find ker lee and chee han's birthday photo then i help him to post. chee han and ker lee, both of our february babies.

ong siaw wei you really a very awesome girl

你们怎样认识的？她有华语名吗？叫什么？住哪里？有去看过电影了吗？去过那里约会？她姐姐放心给你跟她出去？家里有几个人？怎样跟她要到号码的？你们同班吗？你们......?

all i can said that just ong siaw wei you really a very awesome girl, never finish's question. actually still got many question but i forgot already. siaw wei been used our chinese proverb until maximum, like 不耻下问 and 死缠烂打. but still have a guy made she fail because his mouth is too too hard. have you success to get anything in the way back jenjarom,siaw wei?

不喜欢去婚宴

不喜欢去婚宴，
此起彼落的饮胜声，
跟不上拍子的老歌声，
不适合婚宴的歌曲，
太大声的音乐，
老安哥浑身的酒臭味，
最后少不了的就是香烟味。

备注：真不懂为何会取名叫香烟，明明就很臭，又贵而且还拿人命！

BURGER

i don't know his name so i named him BURGER,
he is so so so cute and good boy,
but his mum don't want him already.
pity kid!

i love books

one and the half year of form 6 life,
i had been read a lots of books.
very sorry they are not physics, chemistry or maths.
but a lots of novel and story book.
almost bought 50 books in this one and the half year,
anyway i will still buy more and more,
because i was so into books!

19

从0到9，现在19，未来还有29，39，49，59，希望活到99.
现在19的我站在人群拥挤的十字路口。
向左？向右？前进？后退？
未来还是个未知数，明天是怎样的，谁知。

2009-12-08

10.51 a.m.

给自己设了限，心情也快活些。

Alreay Gone

I want you to know
It doesn't matter where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone

I'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right
When you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on
So I'm already gone

Dear maths and physic, I gone, already gone, because of you both too cutie. Thanks, I learnt many things from you both but I not use it properly.