the end of 2009

finally come to the last day of 2009, as conclude this year is really a tough year for me. i am like on the roller coaster, with unknown journey, rise and fall. but like what kerlee said, this is life. only life with fall and rise will bring us forward and growth. special thanks to kerlee always shared her experience with me. i hate form six life! thanks to my dear mum too although she put me in such tough situation but she let me know the reality of life, what should an adult face. apple, ahui, chinting, bybae and shirley, the five most important people in my form six life, thanks them so so much. oh, one more guy i have to thanks is my best msn friend,alfred. thanks to everyone in my life, you guys were too awesome and adorable, sorry that i can't point out one by one cause of little bit brain damage. in the last few days of 2009, i knew more and more about reality, i will face all of them. hope that start of 2010 i won't alive under the sight of others, i don't care! woohoo~~bye 2009, i won't miss you!

至我的一个朋友，

那就是一个潘多拉的盒子，永远都不能打开。既然人家把你的真心践踏，我想你也不必再对人家处处想让，也不必为人家着想。告诉他不要随便质疑别人对他的真心对待。那种贱货不要也罢，我支持你，加油！好好活出自我......

今天的领悟是，

一条平行线上最多只能三人同行。
四个人的话，只有欲望城市那四个熟女才行。

“天公伯”，保佑啊！

生活总是充满惊奇，每当绝望之时，另一个希望有崛起。
本来稳下心来要好好当个sale，现在又要去银行和加拿大人通电话。
人生真是无奇不有，结果如何呢？
明天自有分晓，“天公伯”，保佑啊！

Today Was A Fairy Tale

well, there are 5 more days i have to work. it's great, maybe...? i also don't know is this the best choice, maybe this is one of the road i should walk through. today is the 16 days after my exam. in this 16 days, i had discovered and understand the reality i should face. especially in relationship, no matter in kind of social or friends. maybe there was also my fault that no tell others what i actually want and i just tried so hard to cover what i know, because i don't want to lose it. heard taylor swift's new song , okey, it's time for me to face the reality now. tomorrow gonna be a good day.

天使遗留的笔记

这是第二本我看到哭的书，书名是《天使遗留的笔记》。这是一本关于一个五岁的小女孩艾莲娜抗癌九个月的过程。艾莲娜在她五岁时发现他身患脑瘤，她的父母把这九个月和癌症抗战的所有写进这本书内。艾莲娜在她剩余的九个月内完成了许多事情。艾莲娜离世之前在家里的个个角落塞满了写给父母及妹妹的信/卡片，让他们可以纪念她。她的开朗和天真让我自愧不如，为何我要为了几件无聊的小事情而耿耿于怀。我因该跟热爱生命，享受生命的美好。愿艾莲娜在天国当个美丽的红发小天使。

第一本看到哭的是九把刀的《这些年二哥很想你》。九把刀真的很贱（这是褒不是贬)，把和狗狗的故事写得如此平凡但又如此贴切人心。

刚刚看了萧亚轩的twitter，希望大家为她的妈妈祈福因为萧妈妈病得很重。愿萧妈妈早日康复。

To Myself : Adia

Adia I do believe I failed you
Adia I know I let you down
don't you know I tried so hard
to love you in my way
it's easy let it go...

Adia I'm empty since you left me
trying to find a way to carry on
I search myself and everyone
to see where we went wrong

'cause there's no one left to finger
there's no one here to blame
there's no one left to talk to honey
and there ain't no one to buy our innocence
'cause we are born innocent
believe me Adia, we are still innocent
it's easy, we all falter
does it matter?

Adia I thought that we could make it
but I know I can't change the way you feel
I leave you with your misery
a friend who won't betray
I pull you from your tower
I take away your pain
and show you all the beauty you possess
if you'd only let yourself believe that
we are born innocent
believe me Adia, we are still innocent
it's easy, we all falter, does it matter?
believe me Adia, we are still innocent
'cause we are born innocent
Adia we are still
it's easy, we all falter ... but does it matter?

Adia from Avril Lavigne, really a great song. I Believe in it. Thanks.

老虎/老鼠傻傻分不清楚

爱河的水喝了都会让人老虎/老鼠傻傻分不清楚？

算过了个不错的圣诞晚。虽然没有雪花但却有大家慢慢的爱，我也满足了。
还不错，接到君儿的祝愿简讯。愿大家拥有丰收的下一年。
2012世界末日别来啊，我还要多活好一阵子呢！
经过这一天让我对事情看得越来越透彻，一切就随风而去吧！

happy merry merry christmas!

today is christmas eve,
hope that tonight gonna be a good good night!
happy merry merry christmas!

冬至

明天就是冬至了，刚刚帮妈妈把汤圆一粒粒的搓好了。不知为何汤圆怎样搓都不会完美，形状和大小一定有差异。这世上应该只有机器才能把汤圆的形状和大小控制成一样的。就像人一样，永远都不会完美的。我终希望所有事情可以完美所以对所有事情都多番忍让，可是结果都离想象很远很远，甚至被遗弃。无所谓的，我已努力，就算是如此也只能说明我做的已足够。反正没有事情是容易的，努力就好了。

备注：宁可后悔做过的事，也不要后悔没做过的事。

20/12/2009

追完《仙剑3》，立刻又投入了《仙剑1》。不知为何特别喜欢配角，常常疑问为何配角就得牺牲成全主角。或许吧，我可以了解配角的心情。永远不能成为主角，但却是不可或缺的！

圣诞节快到了，有什么计划呢？天知地知...我不知！

secret

something belongs to secret just let it be,
knowing too much sometimes won't bring any benefits but disasters!

难

难难难难难，这真是一段很难熬的路。

李阿荟，生日快乐！

原本以为我中六的生活必定非常无聊，虽然真的很无聊啦。不过因为阿荟，芯伊和苹果，才觉得没那么感慨。在报名的第一天，看到她们让我有安全感多了。那天，二话不多说，报完名就狠狠地去唱K。仿佛一起歌颂我们不幸的开始，还好现在一切结束了，谢天谢地，当然最谢谢的是我们自己，如此难熬还幸存了下来。每天争取一点下课的二十分钟，好好的高谈阔论一番。虽然如此难熬，却能乐在其中。如今我们家阿荟已十九了，可以嫁了。没有啦，今天是她十九岁生日，愿她从后能一如既往，开怀大笑。最重要的是，现在工作不要打瞌睡就好了。

仙剑3

刚刚追看完<仙剑3>，剧情很不错。
长卿和紫萱三生三世的爱最令人感动。
不得不提的是蜀山科技真发达，拥有资料百科，通讯仪，甚至连卫星导航都有。
首推通讯仪，真的比市面上任何一款手机还厉害，还能隔空传物呢！
佩服佩服。

february babies-chee han and ker lee

seem apo can't find ker lee and chee han's birthday photo then i help him to post. chee han and ker lee, both of our february babies.

ong siaw wei you really a very awesome girl

你们怎样认识的？她有华语名吗？叫什么？住哪里？有去看过电影了吗？去过那里约会？她姐姐放心给你跟她出去？家里有几个人？怎样跟她要到号码的？你们同班吗？你们......?

all i can said that just ong siaw wei you really a very awesome girl, never finish's question. actually still got many question but i forgot already. siaw wei been used our chinese proverb until maximum, like 不耻下问 and 死缠烂打. but still have a guy made she fail because his mouth is too too hard. have you success to get anything in the way back jenjarom,siaw wei?

不喜欢去婚宴

不喜欢去婚宴，
此起彼落的饮胜声，
跟不上拍子的老歌声，
不适合婚宴的歌曲，
太大声的音乐，
老安哥浑身的酒臭味，
最后少不了的就是香烟味。

备注：真不懂为何会取名叫香烟，明明就很臭，又贵而且还拿人命！

BURGER

i don't know his name so i named him BURGER,
he is so so so cute and good boy,
but his mum don't want him already.
pity kid!

i love books

one and the half year of form 6 life,
i had been read a lots of books.
very sorry they are not physics, chemistry or maths.
but a lots of novel and story book.
almost bought 50 books in this one and the half year,
anyway i will still buy more and more,
because i was so into books!

19

从0到9，现在19，未来还有29，39，49，59，希望活到99.
现在19的我站在人群拥挤的十字路口。
向左？向右？前进？后退？
未来还是个未知数，明天是怎样的，谁知。

2009-12-08

10.51 a.m.

给自己设了限，心情也快活些。

Alreay Gone

I want you to know
It doesn't matter where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone

I'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right
When you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on
So I'm already gone

Dear maths and physic, I gone, already gone, because of you both too cutie. Thanks, I learnt many things from you both but I not use it properly.

bro...shawn...birthday...2012

Having gathering yesterday to celebrate birthday for Shawn and XiaoYann.
Ermm, don't know what to say to them.
Arh! Hope that Shawn don't so auntie again.
And XiaoYann don't always "Gei Ta Qi Dao".

Watched the latest disaster movie 2012 with MengTat and Thew.
2 hour and 40 minutes movie but the movie is awesome.
Cross-fingers hope that the Doomsday won't come.
If it the day coming,I think we won't in the ships because we don't have 1 billion euro.
So come back gather in BTG la.

touching

Having a great movie last night,
"my sister's keeper".
a movie which will make you cry if watched.
and the ost also great and touch music.

i gotta feeling / hey,stephen

after we celebrated apo's birthday, we went to the MC'D. the music were kept going and i had heard a song, this is the song i heard in a movie trailer but i kept finding also can't find it. after asked just know this is black eye peas 's "i Gotta Feeling",really a happy song. initially watched this video i thought that the blue girl at the front was crazy, now just now she is a good dancer.

and the other song is taylor swift's "hey,stephen", thew seem liked this song, he was "grooving" together with the music. heard that thew had sing in his previous drama presentation, really hope can watch that video.

Happy Birthday to Apo

Happy Birthday to Apo

木兰星

木兰情

醒在黑山睡在黄河风吹往北
昨日故乡东市骏马在等着谁
铁衣下的你我 从患难到心碎
我问天 是白是黑

i love movie

yes,finally having my movie since long time not reported myself in the cinema. i had watched 2 awesome and touch movie.there are "tsunami",a Korea movie and "whiteout". tsunami really a damn touch movie, it is very valuable to watch in cinema. will it happen if one day tsunami will come and sweep away the whole Malaysia? whose hand will you catch tight on if the water come? tsunami this movie made my cry in the cinema, so disgrace. and whiteout also a good movie.

i always like to enter the cinema earlier to watch the up coming movie's trailer. no doubt, "2012" is the most expected movie for me, hope it won't make me disappointed. i had been caught by another trailer too, that is "valentine's day", will be release in February of 2010. wow,the cast were so attracted me, julia roberts, jessica alba and also jennifer garner. the most interesting in trailer is that one of the girl said that:

"it's my false that to be alone in valentine's day,my closest relationship was with my blackberry, right? thank god, it vibrates!"

and jessica alba:
"check in for two, i meant one with dog."

here's the link to the trailer:

对于我自己真的无话可说了，
真讨厌自己那伪装的假笑，
真累，
无论在身心灵都好累。
无尽的失眠夜晚，
无尽的无尽。

一盒盒的月饼出炉了
只是越圆
越让人觉得人心的不圆满

我很好！......吧？！

nightmare

had a sudden wake at 12.24 a.m.
really a nightmare
i had dreamed a very difficult mathematics question
then can't fall in sleep for whole night

i love rainy day

finally the heavily rain pouring, weather here had been always sunny.
sunny day always forces us feel the hope to face the day.
sometime it should be rain to cool down the hope.
then we just can feel the failure and find the way to success again.

p/s. sunny day made us sleepy.

tomorrow and future

tomorrow and future, which will come first?
tomorrow? future?


i think future faster cause every next second represents our future.
tomorrow will only same line with future at 11.59.59.
they passed the time together and next second is future again and tomorrow has to wait 24 hours again.


andy lau and his lover had full-filled the headline of malaysia's chinese newspaper recently. actually what the matter with all the media? just a dead man need reported till like this? that is his problem wherether he want to hide his lover or child. some of his crazy fans even want die cause of he has lover especially one called KIKI. this crazy, idiot woman.

hope is always by your side

yesterday just felt very upset and lonely cause too too long with my dear friends, this made my panda eye became more serious. early morning of today woke up then clean my room and though that today must also very boring day but the message came, "hey 9.20pm want go for movie? g.i.joe or district 9? prefer which?" Crazy me cause of disappointed and down mood then declined kopi. sorry to kopi, after that asked again then just wanna go. whatever, can't wait to meet those guys again. really long long time no meet especially mr.yap and mr.thew also. tonight must be a gret night.

my black & white day

while waited for g.i.joe start, i had seen the trailer of revolutionary road. fantastic, i love that movie especially kate winslet. it is actually 2 years passed movie but malaysia now just wanna release, it's really too too late, whatever did also late than others. the proposal really a good movie, in my own opinion. as the main actor, adrew said: ' magaret, you are really beautiful.' yes, sandra bullock really beautiful and bring lots of fun.

花香

花香江蕙

離開彼一晚　會記得故鄉的花香　微微啊天未光　伊就起床來顧花叢
不曾一句怨嘆　搖阮大漢　不甘阮在異鄉乎風雨淋
離土的花叢　為一個夢　人茫茫　海也茫茫
伊惦惦塊等　阮返來彼工　花蕊漸漸紅　伊惦惦塊等
看無伊的人　像海上船啊找無帆　行過這多冬　嘛看透人情的冷暖
故鄉彼條小巷　如今猶原　不同是阮返去伊無塊等
無人惜花叢　花哪會香　世間阿母　攏共款
伊惦惦塊等　阮返來彼工　花蕊漸漸紅　伊已經遙遠
誰人塊叫著我　甘是阿母的聲　親像故鄉不時塊叫我
伊未擱等置彼　不敢來哭出聲　叫阮寶貝心肝　有閒就緊返來看我
伊惦惦塊等　阮返來彼工　花蕊漸漸紅　伊已經遙遠
啦～　啦～　花蕊漸漸紅　伊已經遙遠

This song is very touch for me. It is about a story child with her/his mother. The child went to city to search his/her dream but mother waiting he/she in the hometown. When he/she had success and back to hometown, his/her mother already gone.

link here : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AiGvrugMPfQ

誰

地球上住著很多人，
有些人我們認識，有些人我們不認識，
『有幾個共同朋友』 『要不要加為好友』
熟悉了，親密了，

然後，等到愛情終結了，
雙方又將回到…..陌生的初始狀態。

如果就像六度分隔理論說的，
「我與世界上任何一個陌生人的中間距離不會超過六個人!」
真的是這樣嗎?
穿梭在人群中的你 我 他
沒有人能預知，我們明天 還會遇見 誰。

Life is FXXKY awesome

There is always a turn in front of your life's road, whenever you feel cannot to keep moving on then you will come to the turn. These few week really upset and busy to stuck those physic and chemistry in my mind, really haiz...... Thanks first for my 'old wife' bring some glad to my boring life here. I just can describe life is awesome, adorable and beautiful. On yes, love is beautiful......

p/s. don't doubt, I'm not in love but my old bull has mesmerizes a green grass.^^

To Bybae :

Hrmm... these few days our happy and joy's Bybae had gone. She seem very unhappy and the tears were stuck in her eyes even just now her classmates celebrated her birthday, she also seem quite down. Hey dear Bybae, don't be so upset, everything will be alright. I blamed you cause wanna made you be more "active" and talk more. So hope can have a happy day during tomorrow. Finally, happy birthday.

夢田

每個人心里一畝 一畝田
每個人心里一個 一個夢
一顆呀 一顆種子
是我心里的一畝田
每個人心里一畝 一畝田
每個人心里一個 一個夢
一顆呀 一顆種子
是我心里的一畝田
用它來種什麼
用它來種什麼
種桃種李種春風
用它來種什麼
用它來種什麼
種桃種李種春風
開盡梨花春又來
用它來種什麼
用它來種什麼
種桃種李種春風
用它來種什麼
用它來種什麼
種桃種李種春風
開盡梨花春又來
那是我心里一畝 一畝田
那是我心里一個不醒的夢

Stuck

Just like the string that had been fully pull or walk on the string,
a little careless mistake will pull me down.

I Love Karen Mok

If you like her voice, you will really indulge in her singing. If you don't like her music, you will assumed that what this woman singing about. Luckily I'm the front people and I really enjoy and "sink" in her voice. Her singing style just like muttering but really her the word she sings is really clear, unlike Jay Chou still pretend that this is his style, sorry to his fans but I had to say so. When I hear her music, the feeling just like in the forest with a small river, the water is cool, fresh, comfort. She has so so many songs that valuable to enjoy, like love爱, suddenly忽然之间,hand手, really真的吗,you are so beautiful and so on. Last few weeks, she had introduce her new album, a digital album because the market no more interest in hearing music in style of music. this digital album entitled " Aftertaste ". Really a good good album. especially one of the song, outside's world外面的世界, really perfect.


p/s. sorry for my poor translate and writing cause I just a band 2 person. Haha~~

12 July 2009,

my pc back n i'm back...

8 July 2008

ang chun how is crazy already,
this morning he said to his teacher :
" Can we discuss about your teaching,
i don't like it..... "

26 Jun 2009,

3 a.m. at Cyber's Old Town... Met with my two long lost friends. Very glad to meet them again. From yesterday to today was a very very full-filled day, I meant my stomach. Well, hope those to local U good luck, especially Korli, be happy...

杂草与莲花

如杂草般坚韧

如莲花般不染

as stong as the weed

as innocence as the lotus

the day with 5 women

before that we had planned for so long to go sing k so sorry la Ricky. With this start my day with 5 women cause Weng Seong don't want follow us. Still had 3 hour more for us to start our plan so had a long walk whole around the JJ. Cool experince with 5 women shopping and now I had understand that why women can have a long walk just inside a small shop. While they shopping they must go with their best friends, they will share their daily life with friends and try a lots of clothes, talks, smiles...

yesterday we had also went to ahui's boy friend's home to wait him. Arr~~ so so awkward!! zi kai's parents invited us eat dinner at their home. really so so awkward! after that zi kai fetched us back home. wow,his driving skill was so so cool. really shock!

但是...又何奈

这年头要找个人好好谈谈天都难啊，好不容易找到个可说话的人却被说成是爱恋。还有，和朋友聊天的内容竟被渲染成无聊的八卦。突然好怀念以前和朋友们的闭门会谈。最近的心情就像坐云霄飞车，忽上忽下。电脑坏了，修理费475令吉。第二天，好心的老板帮我保险，修理费应该在100令吉内。考试真是要了我的命，考试时，感觉是有备而来但是准备不足，所以成绩应该是半天调。还有四天就可以解脱了，现在正努力把物理塞进我脑里但不果。

昨天想找个人说说话，打开通讯录才赫然发现我到底该找谁。真失败啊！

还有四天就放假了，期待大家回来聚聚。要好好享受几部电影才行。期待中...

15 MAY 2009,

Ahh~~ So so tired. Today had finished the movie which I longer expect for. 9.30 morning went JJ's cinema from my house, about 10.20 morning I already reached JJ and had a short walk. 11 morning started my first movie "Angel and Demon", this movie is extremely nice, all the background are awesome and beautiful, it makes me wanna have a journey to Vatican. All the church were so beautiful and meaningful. I think if you wanna watch this movie you better read the book first cause it will be little confuse. 1.3o afternoon started the second movie, " X-men Origin : Wolverine". Since I had watched the X1, X2 and X3 so this movie must cannot miss. Wolverine, cool man! Nice movie. Feel very happy now. Erm... I should go to my study now. Next Tuesday will start my Mid-exam. So, bye.

p/s. After finish exam I want watch " Night In The Museum 2" and I want go Time Square see Jolin.

The answer is...

Wow, today will be my most lovely singer-Stefanie Sun concert. She will start her " The answer is...Stefanie Sun 2009 world live tour" tonight, is tonight!!! I can imagine that the opening with lots of fans' sound thundered the whole Giant Egg, "Yanzi... Yanzi...". With here as a little fan hope her live tour will be fully success.

Will be go for movie soon, "Angel & Demon" and "Wolverine". Bye,tell you later. Got to go bath now.

Appologize...

Dear Chocolate,
very very sorry.
I will stop what I had done.

10 MAY 2009,

Have you ever receive the most special and touch birthday gift? Yes, I received it yesterday. It is three long wish plus birthday song from my eighteen our gang best friends, Bing Yi and Siao Shuangto A Wei and me.. Really glad when I first heard it, recorded 20 sounds was a very difficult mission for Apo but he still can solve it by the time. Really thanks to him. When I second time heard was touch, it made me cry at the same time I still in laugh because some were too funny especially Thew sing the song for me. Never hear he sing before, song quite good but just he shy to sing. Next time go sing k remember pick up the mic and sing loud. Thanks to Siaw Wei and Bybae threat Siaw Wei's mum go Bangan Lalang but actually came Banting to celebrate for A wei and me. Thanks 2 really long time no see friend, Wei Han and Ji Tat that always appeared in my important time to share. Thanks Ker Lee And his bf, A Yao came too although yesterday was their first anniversary. Thanks A Hui rushed here to celebrate. Thanks Yen Shyang cycled so long to celebtate. Thanks Jin Err and Say Er too. Thanks to Siao Shuang and Bing Yi for their sweet sound. Thanks Chee Han rushed back but no see him. Thanks Seng Huei came then rushed back to Klang again. Then, thanks Meng Tat, Xiao Yann, Shao Wei, Yong Jun and Shawn of the recording. Finally, Thanks A Wei cause of our first anniversary, haha......

09 May 2009,

Erhmm... Today is my nineteen years old birthday, feel very shy to say this. Anyway, really thanks for those send me the wish. I am really appreciate all the wishes. Really thanks with 90 degree bow.

Shirly 00:01
ChUn HoW
★ ★ ★ ★ ★
HapPY biRthDaY
★ ★ ★ ★ ★
~thanks, Shirly!

Kerlee 00:02
Happy birthday! May your dreams come true..
~thanks, kerlee always be the one "open my mind".i am happy.

Ricky 00:03
Chun how, happy birthzday for you...just a simple wish,happy always...
~thanks,apo. i received your wish.

Wen Ling 00:03
happy birthday to u,make a wish
~thanks,wen ling. wish we all can get good result. effort it.

Say Er 00:03
Happy birthday chun hao...say er here..wish you stay happy and happy forever
~thanks,say er.i know who you are and wish you happy too.

Yen Shyang 00:05
Hehr. Bang. Happy birthday yea. Wish you happy always. Good luck in stpm. Hehe. Stay happy n happy birthday yea.
~thanks a lot, kopi.wish me with all type of communication I have. u are a good guy.

Leng Hoi 00:07
Happy birthday=]
~thanks,leng hoi and don't hate the boy. haha...

Chin Ting 00:09
Hey,happy birthday...
~thanks,fish. Apple noise again"you two har...yesterday your birthday, tomorrow his birthday..."

Bee Yen 00:12
happy birthday o...
~thanks,bee yan, my one day girlfriend.

Bybae 00:19
Happy birthday..wish you all the best..and 20 years old dy..sound quite old..Haha..be mature..smile always..goodluck..night..
~thanks,bybae.But!!! I am 19 and you will also welcome your 19 soon. You also getting old.haha...

Siaw Wei(Dearest) 00:35
hiao...happy birthday to u ya! (with a love on her hand{image})
~thanks,dearest. really love to be your hand,wish you also happy.

Suk Wei 03:45
If i hv no mistake,2day is ur birthday.Hapi birthday.Erm..present gv u on monday lo. Coz im bz at move now..
~haiz,now just remember,don't you discuss with yeung shean before.anyway,thanks.

Gen Jie 09:41
Happy bdaay ;3
~thanks.

Shawn 10.47
happy bufday yo...fren...
shawn~~
~thanks,friend.

Jie Sin 13:21
ah hiao
wish u happy bufday o......always be happy!!! **jie sin**
~thanks,aba!

Xiao Yann 13:27
Hapi bday!
~thanks,xiao ne...

Jin Err 15.02
Ah hiao...happy birthday..^^
~thanks,jinne...

Chee Han 16:28
hihi..
happy birthday ya!!!
wish u happy always...
=alfred_panadol=
~Is you la, that thew still don't want wish me.Haha,well,thanks a lot.

Weng Seong 19:26
Chun How, Happy Birthday har! I think sms and comment no enough so I want talk by myself.
~yes lar, yes lar. Thank you, i received.

Well, thanks you all sent me the wish at the late night. I can't read at immediate cause I really sleepy. I received your wish now. I will be more happy. Thanks. Everyday have become a custom and life become flat but there must be some suprise's touch because of you all in my life.

Fifth May of 2009,

Nothing special for the days, everyday wake up then went to school.
Trying to study hard, study smart.
Hope that everything will be alright.
Hope that everything will be great.
Thursday will be my speaking test.
Nothing to nervous about.
Playing truant tomorrow cause every of class go to speaking.
I am alone take the test in Thursday.
Never mind.
Whatever...

Now crazy with Colbie Caillat's sound.
Comfortable, soft.
Everything looked peace.
Whatever...

1 May 2009,

Today is Labour Day but it is also a very tired day for me. My dad is crazy, drive us to Ampang just because my mum wanna eat "yong dao fu". Then went to Time Square and Sungai Wang, really damn tired. After that my mum said she want go The Curve buy something, my dad fetched her go also. Really tired and sleepy now but later will hang out with gang,feelo so glad now cause long time no see them already.

30 April 2009,

The final day of April, I conclude that :

We need some more courageous.

26 April 2009,

Yesterday morning was in very disappointed and down mood. After exam then totally felt in sleep so not to think too much. About 9.30 p.m. received one three week stranger call, I know that I got to hang out with my gang, feel so happy and glad. This meeting have seven member attended, they were me, tansri, apo, kopi, awei,cheehan and jinne. Quiet happy time in mcd. Apo took his pro camera shoot again and again but finally just got about 10 photo okey only. I also had took some photo. Everyone still everyone. Finaly we planned go picnic next Saturday, hope that everyone can come to attend our trip.

25 April 2009,

Just finished my reading, writing and listening test, feel really really down cause all in confuse and nervous. because of this exam, met again with Eng Keat, Kwong Win, Curly and A-Ne. Still feel happy to meet them. The exam were really tough. This time must be die hard, cannot get band 4 and need struggle under my "dearest" MUET teacher again.

Recently watched Taiwan new drama," Black & White ", quite difference with previous Taiwan drama. The story is about police, great drama. One of the actress like some people's girl friend- Bing Yi. You all know de...

24 April 2009,

Playing truant again cause feel that I have to tidy my mood before the MUET exam. Now in studying some idioms or phrases cause one of my friend said that it will be bonus if use some idioms in the essay. Actually some of the idioms were like Chinese idioms. Here some to share with Bybae. Recently she seem trap in the bad mood, hope she will be better before the exam.

01. not to judge a book by its cover (not judge one by its appearance)
02. keep something for a rainy day (prepare something before face the trouble)
03. spreading like wildfire (Some news spread with fast)
04. to throw in the towel (give up)
05. many hands make light work (co-operate make the work easier)
06. don't cry for the moon (ask for something that is impossible)
07. hit the ceiling (very angry)
08. keeping my head down (to avoid the trouble)
09. blood is thicker than water (relation between family)
10. the ins and outs (the full details)
11. to lend a hand (to help)
12. bad blood (angry)
13. in cold blood (cruel)

Still got many but seem no use and these just I can memorized. Hope tomorrow will be a better day.

23 April 2009,

Yesterday went to the Malaysia National Science, here some funny photos to share.

Amitabha...
Energy Star.
Help the giant to dig his nose.
Every corner also has me.
In front of concave mirror.
Help! I been catch ye the spider girls... Help!!!!
Again all the corner with me... ha ha...
Wow!! My head bit by the dinosaur!! Help!!
Special feel, the fish were swam on my body...

One more day I will face my MUET exam, hope that I can get at least band 4 so that I can survive from my damn MUET teacher. Dear God, please bless me. Pray for me.

19 April 2009,

Just finished a Japanese movie entitled " Tokyo Friends ", this is a very very nice movie. No any reason but just I like the flow of the movie. The movie pointed the first dream that you have dream of and the most important is about friendship. A 20 years old girl from a small and unnamed island went to bid cit, Tokyo to find her future and finally become the lead singer of a philharmonic orchestra. In Tokyo, she met many many difference but common people. Everyone were rushing for their own life, dreams, love, family and work. She met her three best friends. First was an OL which always dream to be merry with a nice guy so everyday met with difference kinds of men. Second girl was a talented in drawing u-student but always don't know what she really expect for. Third girl was girl whose interest in stage-play. They for met and always encourage each other to pursue their own dream. In these growing process there were many happy and sadness. But like one of them said, "no matter how hard today that's never mind, we four can together here to drink, talk and share, the most important is tomorrow when you wake up and open your eye, we still got to face the day."

2009 April 18,

Sometimes feel my life was too crowded, I should escape it for a while. I want have a silent day. Yesterday after woke from the noon sleep, suddenly had an idea crossed my mind which was tomorrow I must want go to watch movie by myself. With no more thinking and 10.30 morning I went to the bus station then took bus to AEON Bukit Tinggi. About 45 minutes took to reach my destination, once reach quickly rushed to buy the ticket. Seem today had some many people came for movie, many nice-wore kids and youths made me felt self-abasement. Every nice-wore people with the latest cellphone and wore all the famous named clothes and shoes. Luckily I am not like that materialistic to compare myself with them, if that I should dig a hole to hide myself. 12.30 p.m. I had watch " He's just not that into you", a very nice movie. Story about few friend's life in the big city. Everyone everyday faced difference problems. Some everyday expect for love, some may have marriage problems and many about love. Then 3.20 p.m. watched the " Mall Cop ", this is a very funny movie. After watched you must have a very good mood. With that ended my " alone movie day ". I had told Bybae what I'm did but she said that she can't do these because she is social animal and can not live alone with her maxim, " no man is an island ". I won't refute her because everyone live with different value but that's no mean I like lonely. Sometimes just want have a silent and peaceful day. So, my maxim for today is " alone but not lonely ".

17 April 2009,

Recently I was in bad luck, don't know why and something bad luck must happened on me. Twp days ago, I had Chemistry experiment and the Iron(II)Chloride had been spill on my white trouser where around the ass. It looked like menstruation, I looked so silly and fool. Bad luck came to yesterday, when i went to school I had to cross the overhead bridge. Before I step on the stair, I had been slip down. The story came to the night, before I want to sleep. When I walked in my room, suddenly the door locked and my brother from outside wanna open then the lock was jam. No matter how I open also cannot and I had been trapped in my room for about 30 minutes. Luckily my dad help me to break the lock then just can open. How bad luck am I.

16 April 2009,

These few days really calm, peace, silent and blue. Days go a day, time rush very fast and tomorrow will be Friday again. Next Saturday will be the MUET test, one of my important test in my Form 6. Don't know why, nothing nervous now but everyone in school look so nervous and stress. Everyone were rush for something, some even because the pressure and felt very down. These few day I must be something going wrong, kept talking, joking and laughing. Maybe these are the way I release my pressure. Next Wednesday will be with reasonable play truant and go shopping because we will go to the international book fair and shopping. Really feel lucky before the test can have a short break. Actually I am also what I am typing now because my mind was very chaos, just like a hand stirr in my mind. Hope tomorrow will be a better day. Tomorrow is another day but seem my days will keep continue until before Christmas. Pray for me. Oh, today is my best friend, Apple lee's birthday, wish her happy always and don't always with that sleepy fish eye.

Happy Birthday, Apple.

p/s. Found an old song from Cheer Chen, the song entitled " everyday is a new practise " ,
every time hear like her whisper beside my ears, is time for something new...

2009 April 12,

Wait and expect for the unknown destination are the most disaster things for me. Just now reading many people's blog, no much of people are really happy. Actually the full-filled tear's eyes were covering with happy faces, everyone were trying to fake a smile everyday of their life. The unknown destination maybe friendship, love, studies, family...... So, I am not the only unhappy guy is this world. Just saw Siaw Wei's blog, really many including me will adore of her life nothing to worry about but actually she is not a happy girl now. Don't know why, maybe the unknowns cover our eyes. Maybe there are too many we have and we don't know to appreciate them. If you still confuse and struggle with your life please watch this video, it will make you appreciate what you have now. Always be happy although there are no much of really happy people.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KA5dPKUpK6g

2009 April 09,

Have you ever try someone draw a big shit on your table then write "I am a shit", your name and colour your table? The worst is put the glue on the words and when you want to rub it off but can't. Have you try it? Yes I did, right this morning. Today is April of ninth but not April Fool. Sometime I also adore my happy minded, after they did that I still can joke with them I want call Cikgu Zakharia come to catch them. Actually I am no angry but the most are sad and disappointed. While I rub my table, no one came to help but the jokers still in laugh. They no even apologized with me but just kept smiling. I had nothing to say at all. After they went to lab, I still washed the table by myself. Am I stupid or fool? I still can smile, I think I must something going wrong. Until just now tuition there was someone said I was angry then the jokers still no talked to me or any apologize, finally I just like I bully them.

p/s. Tomorrow is Good Friday, those who studied in M.E.S., will your skip your class?

2009 April 8,

"oh~你收了行李下个星期要去英国 oh~遥远的故事记得带回来给我 我知道我想要 却又不敢对你说 因为我已改变太多 oh~你改了一个名字也准备换工作 oh~你开始了新的恋情有一些困惑 我知道你想要 却又不敢对我说 因为你已改变太多 oh~你写了好几首属於你的歌 oh~这样的歌隐藏了太多苦涩 我知道你想要 却又不敢对我说 因为我曾是你 我曾是你 无话不说的朋友 因为 我们改变太多"

This is one of the new song from Cheer Chan, it is a very meaningful song and her song just like the knife cut your heart, once your here more and more then you will get serious hurt. Wow, long time no connected with others except those who in school but also rare to see A Hui because she is marrying to Jenjarom. Finally Alfred came to knock my door and asked where I am gone. I still here, my dear friend. This is song for you, this is what I feel and I would like to share with you. Cheer wrote this song for her best friend, her friend went to England. Just like you went KL to study. She want her friend remember bring back all the story happened there to her, so remember bring back your story to me. I know that and you also know that, there is something difficult to talk it out because all of us were changing, we were changing to another stage in order to face our different life's challenge.
So wherever you go please still remember you still have a friend here and always prepare to hear from you.

2009 April 6,

I like Cheer Chan's words, always with lots of meaning. Here I want to share this sentences:

“太阳也许不知道自己多么重要，或许，他只是个胆小鬼，如同你我一样.”

Sorry for my poor translate, this sentence state that the sun maybe don't know how important he is, maybe, he just a coward, like you and me. In my opinion, this sentence mean that everyone is important like the sun supplies the light to every life, just ourselves don't know that our own consequence and value.

From Renee Liu, I love her words.

人為了一個祕密
付出了很大的代價
之後
又因為這個代價
學習到祕密的本質

1 April 2009,

This morning heard from the FM, the DJ said that if you today no being foolish by others mean that you are not good in social. Is that real? I no think so. Wow, today was really hotting. Great God, if you can please let Malaysia can has winter time.

31 March 2009,

I am rubbish,
you are garbage,
we all in the dustbin.

29 March 2009,

Distance is really a very cruel and struggle test no matter for friends or couples. And I really cannot passed these tests. This few day I deeply feel this problems. Everyone is in change even myself, the innocent gone away some even began wore the mask with difference faces and expressions. It is difficult to find back the initial's innocent and passion. The passion is gone, that's what I had saw.

28 March 2009,

Today I want to commend of the movie that I watched yesterday. The movie named " The Reader ". This is the movie by Kate Winslet. I like her movie. With "The Reader" she won the Oscar best actress on year 2009 and she really deserved the glory.

The main background is located at German, just right after the Second World's War. Kate aka Hanna, a ticket lady on the buses. One of the day while she was worked, she met a boy, the boy was about 17-18 and the boy felt sick. Hanna sent him to hospital. After three months the boy heal and went to thank her. With that time they started their amazing relationship, they were friend, couple. Hanna ordered the boy read her a book every time he came. But finally they variance and never saw each again.

The boy was a law student, he met her again in the court. Hanna had been denounce. Hanna had been framed that killed hundred of life because she locked the church. The church was fired cause of bomb and all of woman trapped in the church. Finally there ware just two survivor. Actually she just one of the guard and she know that her responsibility is not let the woman escaped. And there was a report can proved that she was innocent but she want to keep the secret so she plead guilty. Hanna actually a illiteracy and she don't know how to write. She had been jail more than twenty years.

Day go a day, the by grown and became a lawyer. He has a daughter but he was divorced with her wife. He backed to his hometown. His memories began to flashback the time with Hanna. He decided continue be Hanna's reader. So he recorded all the story in tape and sent the tapes to Hanna. Hanna was touched and she also began to learn and read, learn from the boy's tapes. Times go long she also learned to write. She began write to the boy. He never replied but just kept send her the tapes.

Finally that was time for Hanna to come out. Before the boy went to collect him, Hanna made decision to kill herself. She had been never interact with outside world for more than twenty years. And she kept her secret till the end.

The story is very very touch for me.

waiting...

huh... really got to take a deep breath.
yes, the taste of waiting is really suffer.
i now know the test.
please forgive me of misunderstand of you though that a simple job.
now know all the answer then totally felt relax.
thanks god.

Yesterday I had watched a movie entitled "Revolutionary Road" by Kate Winslet and Leonardo DiCaprio. This movie is the second movie that they two co-operated since "Titanic". This the movie where Kate Winslet get the best actress of Golden Globe Award and she really is. This movie may no suitable for those don't like love story because it is little bit boring but it is very a very fantastic movie.

She is April and he is Frank. They met at the party after that April get pregnant then they decided to marry. Finally their life tied by the kids. April let go her dream as an actress but just performed the soap drama in neighbourhood. Frank worked 10 hours everyday in order to supply his family. Frank always tell April how great of Paris. Finally April made decision move to Paris so that she can leave this boring life in 115, Revolutionary Road. Moreover she can chased after her dream be an actress in Paris. In the process of prepared, April found that she was pregnant and Frank give up the decision. April was totally disappointed with his husband's fear. She really want to leave. then she decided to abort by herself. She fail and experienced too much of bleeding. She made the final call: " I think i need some help, 115 Revolutionary road". This sentence was kept continue appeared in my mind. It's time to revolution.

21 March 2009,

Yesterday's activity Ricky and Siaw Wei already wrote so I will not repeat the same writing again. I want to talk about the movie that we watched, the movie entitled "Marley and Me". Marley is a dog, an over active dog. I think those who had pets and love them very much, you will felt very touch after watched this movie. Always went cinema to watch those screaming, running, horror, violence, ghost, heroes and others. Sometimes the simple movie is better than that with millions cost production movie. A dog can made your life felt difference. Actually yesterday my rational was fighting with my tears, once Marley began to sick then i knew the conclusion but tried to not tear it out. The next movie that I most expect is "He's just not that into you", this is also a simple and love movie about few friends live in big city. Jennifer Aniston that aka Jane in "Marley And Me" also will appear in this movie. Oh, the actress that I most expect is Drew Barrymore From "Charlie's Angels".

18 March 2009,

Today want to talk about one the best friend that admire most, she is Apple. She is really a good girl or now I have to call her as lady. I think she is the most successful lady among all my friends, sorry I had to say that but this is the truth. Firstly, she can work as the yoga and dancing teacher. She can paid for her own life and she can even paid the loan of the car every month. She has a lovely boy friend. The most important is that she can always live with happy and glad mood. Hope that our friendship can last forever.

17 March 2009,

Recently, one of my friend has faced some troubles. He is confused with where, who is his real friends? Actually I had faced this trouble before, it was just after finished our SPM. After that I had totally disappeared in their life even they went for travel and so on. Actually the incident made me down was that they had created a profile named Our Gang in Friendster, then they had came out a list that with 18 best friends but I was not in the list. This incident really made me hurt so bad. That time I was totally spoilt, I always asked myself that what I had did wrong? Don't that everytime they organized any activities I also joined? Many many many questions I had asked myself but I had nothing did wrong. The thing I don't have is that I am no enough charm and compelling. But the most luckiest was that there is a best friend beside me, he is Yeung Shean. He had worked together with me during the long period holiday, then I shared my trouble with him. Really thanks a lot to him help me walked out from these haze. He said that friends no just in list but inside of heart. Afterward I am also began to think, be more open minded to look at one thing. Then I walked out from these haze and I joined again with these friends until now I been found many best friends. The journey is hard and pain but the destination is better than what you though. But sometime I will also fell into this black mood again then I will told him, then he just replied me this massage. That what I want to share: " Friendship is infinity,no wonder how far we are, as the heart still in link, the distance between us will just like we are now sitting beside. As my phone still got your phone number, you still the friend that I appreciated." Yes, he is correct. So I want to share this experince with him. Hope that he can quickly walk out from these haze.

I'm just barely hanging on

Ker Lee said:
my dear friend,this is a hard time for you as a form 6 student.. we all knew about this.. we knew it is hard to go through this phase yet you left no longer days to stay in form 6.. what we can do now is just do our best to archieve what we desired for so long.. isn't? instead of thinking so much,we just start to take our action to get it.. nothing is impossible because i believe that you're possible to do it..
good luck my dear friend..
although i am lucky to get in matrick yet i know how tough is form 6 life..
remember this
"before god entrust you a mission,you will be tested your endurance both spiritually and physically.."

wish you good luck my dear friend..
we will support you always :)
____________________________________________________________________
Ker Lee, thanks a lot. this touch passage also share with those in form 6.

Save Me From Myself

11 March 2009,

Don't know why,today suddenly felt so so down even the tears wanna came out during my teacher was in teaching. Maybe teacher said that there was only two out of eight yesteryear's student passed their physic. The mood just liked I am in watched Titanic, ten out of fifteen hundred people alive. Can I catch one of the floating wood? Can I find the vessel and blow it for someone to save me? Can I survive? No one can save me. I know that only me can save me from myself. Wish I always have good mood.

behind of her

i am fell so pity of her
she likes to be the head of team
she likes to control of all
she seems liked weather
she seems so dark
always with bad mood
she don't know
don't know
behind of her
there are so much of
disaffected
disobey
malcontent

四

我真的倦了，每天都得面对那可恶的26个字母还有数也数不尽的数字所以想打华文。前几天因为要考数学而辗转难眠，在被数学程式围绕的空隙中想起了自己以前做了多少“好傻好天真”的事情。虽然回想有点好笑但对我而言这些回忆好珍贵同时也傻的可爱，傻得可以。回想起了我三个好朋友-邹，张和叶同学。

先说说邹同学吧，他真的是我遇见最奇特的人。他看见的很阔同时他的世界很小。他是一个很好的聆听者但他意见我有时也会却步，他有点偏激。不过认识他好好噢，他可以看见我所看到的，听我所听见的（不是鬼），我是说想法。现在还记得那一首歌，电视不断播放的那一首《不远》。“我就站在不远处，默默的为你祝福......”，他哭了当一群人在狂欢之时。自起我再也没有见他哭过了。他的冷笑话一点都不好笑，终觉得在掩饰着什么。

叶同学，真的是一个开心的人。如我而言，纪汉和云欣是唯二真的好笑的人。他拥有天生的幽默和乐知。另外一面的他其实是个爱哭宝，详情就不说了。他越来越潮男了，不要挖他的旧事来说。他就像单飞比较红的偶像，很忙，其实在忙功课啦。每次见到他都有不一样的惊喜，只能说越来越帅咯。蜕变让他越来越有自信。

最后就是张同学了，老土点的形容就是邻家大男孩。让我最羡慕的是他的纯真，经过了这样久，他还是保有那份纯真，真好。回想每次去他家住都好开心。所以我常说巧克力家是酒店大厅，东禅寺是花园，张同学家是酒店，哈哈。他就是一个让人很想照顾他的人，叶同学和邹同学就爱给他劝告，意见。

好多事情发生。最先认识应该是邹同学吧。噢，还记得那时超级无敌讨厌体育课所以常常假装忘记带体育服然后被老师罚捡垃圾，经而认识邹同学然后再认识叶同学，那时我们都好爱S.H.E。再来因他们才认识张同学。好奇特，来自启化，仁嘉隆，中华及中南的四个死小孩就这样认识了。

我觉得我最宇宙无敌的事情就是.......好啦，就是有一阵子叶同学和邹同学冷战。我啊...哈哈...我就去打印12份的问卷给我和其他三位。内容就是为什么讨厌/喜欢和他做朋友，他的优缺点诸如此类的问题，结果还真的有回信呢。噢，让我还耿耿于怀的是张同学到现在还不回信。如要续说还有两匹布这样长，回忆就留给我们去想吧。

当时已经回不去了，路还是得继续往前走，回忆依然继续累积。最近大家都各自忙个的，希望下次可以四人到齐。单飞了，还是要偶尔回来看看。好久没合照了，有机会下次四个人在一起照。

start

wow!! today start my school's monthly test.
pretty nervous while doing physic,
the simplest equation also forgot,
after the test just remember back is "Q=cv".
after that there was pa2,
quite happy and excited while drawn the pie chart,
but finally know i was right felt very happy.
still got to suffer for two days,
never mind and the short holiday want come again.
tomorrow will be math-t,
integration will kill me.

just had charted with shawn and alfred,
they really try very hard in their study,
no time to sleep,
rush for assignment.......
"better before sweet",
the candy is difficult.
dear god,
please give them little time to sleep.

finally,
really thanks for siaw wei's wish.

see picture and make story

Am I cute?

Touch me if you dare!

How dare you are really touch me!! Take out your pump!!
Don't run!! I will catch you!!
Finally catch you!!
Sorry, I'm wrong...
Haha... Never mind, I got things to protect me.

lazy

today i'm lazy
don't want go to school to face my muet teacher
don't want and don't want

really really tired...

today with pbsm of whole kuala langat's secondary school, about 700 students went to climb the jugra hill. here my damn shit journey:
06.45am - reached school cause teacher said got to assemble 7.15am
08.30am - went to sk pematang pasir
11.45am - started to climbed the hill
04.00pm - reach the light house of jugra
06.00pm - finally reached home

really really tired, everyone whom went to climb must said these words. seem like very simple but it was very difficult because the hill is so biasing and slippery, along the road just have some rattan and trees' roots to hold, really difficult. it is hard but because of this i had met more and more friends. the feel is so good! oh yes, the most damn incident is below my neck is white but upper part include my face is black. T-T

emptiness

emptiness day,
the whole morning was so so boring.
damn shit muet teacher.
.......................
need go tuition again... haiz

way to mature

yesterday, me,weng seong,xiao yann,apo,meng tat,yeung shean,seng huei,leong wei and leong kai went jj for movie. the movie entitled "punisher:the war zone",the movie was cruel and horrible. the damn shit was the cinema was too too cold. initially siaw wei and sin yee will came with us but when siaw wei drove to banting her mother called her and backed ts immediatelly. the poor weng seong was waiting them and finally came jj one person. after that leong wei and his brother came to meet us then seng huei also arrived. oh yes, yesterday i had broke two records. one is that the earliest back home time and the other is the least money i spent, just rm15.50. when i reached home, my crazy mother still asked me why you back so early.

after the movie, we backed and i followed weng seong's car seem siaw wei them no came. we have a short talked. long time no talk with him with just two person only. after the short talked, i noticed that he still the innocent boy i know but he is now become more mature, learning to concern and concentrate. feel so good to notice that he is growing. after a short while, we reached jenjarom. after ricky took the money from him then we said bye bye. the money is for the trip to taman negara. i was interested with that but i have no money so i no go. never mind. i still very happy to see everyone are healthy and happy.

p/s. pray for weng seong and wish he can pass his math.^^

the fear

just now had a long talk with apple and chin ting.
today was my school's sport day but there is meaningless for us.
we just went there to get our cocuriculum's marks.
we confuse what we do for.
next week still need go to climb jugra hill in order to collect the mark,
damn shit!
actually our condition are same,
liked the sky just now,
grey and looked want to pour the rain immediately.
we have many confusion and ......
our tomorrow always shaky.
i can't how to say 'them'.
the only way just walk through it.

you don't know me
i also have my pressure
i doubt with my future
what should i do
which should i choice
and many many thing

yes,this valentine,some of us are lonely guys n' ladies. so we went to sunway pyramid for movie. we watched 'eden lake',that is a horrible and terrible movie. meng tat and weng seong kept said that waste money to scare themselves. haiz,the most happy among us was siaw wei. she has chocolates and a rose. kept smile the whole day. after that we went ate 'bah kut teh'. then back to jenjarom then went rojak corner had a short sit. so,are we lonely this valentine? i don't know. but i know that my friends will always by my side.